TimeoutwithDESE

A Tired body. Drowsy eyes. Weak legs. As I pen down my thoughts for you, these are the expressions of the state I've found myself in. I wonder what will happen if I don't show up when my heart already knows the answer, and so I keep going because the feeling of regret and distrust in oneself is too much of a burden to bear. Speaking of distrust, something crazy happened to me. "What was I thinking?" I have been asking myself what went wrong. I was fully aware of my words and environment, but somehow I got lost in my head. Lost in my abilities . As much as it seemed funny, it caused me a lot of concern. I've always been an avid Word Lover. Words make me happy. New words give me ecstasy. Once I come across a word I'm unfamiliar with, I tend to leave every engagement just to get the information surrounding that word. So it shouldn't have been a problem to spell the word "Grace". Yes, that's the word I misspelled in front of a crowd—–quite embarr...

I had so many episodes this May. By episodes I mean challenges, especially for my character. I know I have many flaws, but it irks me when people try to talk to me regarding how to handle them because I feel naked. Like they have stripped me of my clothes and cast me into the market square. Pretty embarrassing . Well, I gave it some serious thought because in the end; I carry over ninety percent of the effects of the bad habits I exhibit. I'm the direct hit, so if I don't change or turn a new leaf, I'll suffer. So I took it upon myself to identify the bad traits in me and it'll surprise you to know that they're so many😩. I used to think I was an okay human, one without stress because "I no too like wahala", one who smiles and waves and is quite nice to everyone until I examined myself. This is how some of us come to conclusions about ourselves and without thinking, we feel entitled to some things because we think we're nice. You expect good things to ...

In the court, the only way to freedom, is through substantial evidence. To prove your innocence, you need to show that you didn't commit the crime. And that's why it is said that evidence is the key a court needs to render their decision. Once there's nothing backing up your statement, you will be convicted.  In other words, you'll be confined.  Stagnant. The five year old you is very different from you now. Everyone can tell. Why? Because the evidence is very clear. There's been a change in height, weight and even size. I know in some homes, records are kept of how tall each child grows each year.  If there's a sign of stunted growth, medical attention is called for immediately because it's not normal. While we grow we notice changes, no matter how little. There's a change in your dealings and relationship with people. There's a change in your thinking. You become sensitive to your environment too. Now, in relation to your personal development, wha...

  If there's one thing I detest, it's indecisiveness. You fall into so much guilt when you're between a rock and a hard place, and the worst part, it's not a happy place. Unfortunately, it came with full force this March. I love having things under control. If it's going to slip through my fingers someday, then I'd rather not carry it.  If I decide this is the way I want to go about it, then there's no going back. I had to take a side concerning something important in my life. In the short run, I didn't see the need. Just work on it and go with the flow. I kept working towards it, putting in lots of effort and even going out of my comfort zone—which is actually comfy🤭. After so much postponement, the time finally came for me to take a stand. I've never been so confused in my life. I don't know if you've been in a situation where you had to choose to forgo or continue. How did you feel? If it's sad, you probably can feel how pinchy my sh...